I know what to expect from my future spiritual buddy. The purpose of spiritual buddies is so that both can encourage each other to grow towards God and to become more Christlike. If a spiritual buddy is unable to do that, then he's not fulfilling his purpose of being a spiritual buddy I guess.
A spiritual buddy is a commitment. Which means, if person A is the spiritual buddy of person B, person A should be continuously encouraging person B to have a close relationship with God and never neglect person B (like what my first spiritual buddy did. Disappointing huh.).
I shared with my cell group on Friday about Mark 10: 45, when Jesus came to Earth not to be served, but to serve. And this reminded me of Jesus' sacrificial love. Especially towards Judah. When Jesus knew that He was going to be betrayed by Judah, He still loved him, just like how He loved the other eleven disciples.
I know I can still maintain friendly relationships with my previous two spiritual buddies, but to love them like how Jesus loved Judah, I know it's difficult to bring myself to do so.
I feel so cold right now. Hoping that I would receive a message on my phone that reads, "Cheer up Alex!" Or even a smiley. Encouragement. I know who has been encouraging me and sending me messages.
All I hope is that I will never walk through this phase of life alone. A friend in need is a friend indeed. I guess I'm a person who takes friendship rather seriously, that's why I'm so upset by my past two experiences. I guess as I move on, I will begin to share more... through description of behaviour, but I will not release their names. That's for me to know and for you to find out. Ha.
Life is just like a roller coaster. There are ups and downs... I suppose I'm going down the roller coaster at a rather fast rate, and trying very hard to not continue to fall further. I'm hoping for the day, the moment, when my roller coaster will start to rise, rise to its peak... and even though I might fall, there's someone falling with me. Haiz.
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