Second Day

Today felt a little bit better. Though I only talked to very few people, but I have already learnt that if I continue to possess this narrow perspective, I will only be ruining myself and clouding myself from what God wants to tell me. So I've learnt to take things naturally. Though I still prefer to stay at my sit and read during free periods or in between lessons.

At this point in time, I know that I should reject the request of my first "spiritual buddy". I know that if we continue to be spiritual buddies again, it will just bring a lot of unhappiness in the end. So I think if he pops the question again I will just say "no", because these two days, it felt like... we were having a cold war kinda thing. I didn't want to take the initiative to talk to him, but he could happily talk to anyone in the class except me. I thought we had cleared things up but yes this is what I am seeing.

But I have never forgotten my promise to God - to let go and let God, and to rejoice in Him! That's what I have been telling myself, and I will never forget it. I told a few of my cell members that I'll give it a try to let go of all these things, and yes I made this promise to God. At least I'll try for the first week, but hopefully I'll have the faith to continue to let go and let Him guide me.

Well, that's all for today. Though today wasn't that great a day, but this post didn't sound too emo right? Haha...