Today was a little bit better. Still didn't talk much today. Though there were moments of laughter and everything because I found entertainment while using my laptop. Haha. Won't wanna elaborate on what I was doing in class. Lol. At least I did my work when I was supposed to.
All the unhappy memories suddenly came back. And again I'm doubting my talent in music. I'm beginning to think that music might not be my area of talent after all. And I'm beginning to think that I'm talented in nothing. Oh wait. Talented in failing. Now I remember.
And I'm having second thoughts about my song sharing tomorrow. I'm even thinking that maybe I should just play the sound track and not sing along. Scarley I sing out of tune and then my self-confidence drops again. Haiz.
Sometimes I think... in what way does God still find me useful. Everywhere I go, I'm not needed. I'm not needed in class as well. And at BB. I still haven't gotten a reply for that email.
I just suddenly feel like disappearing. Like buying an air ticket and going where I want to go. I want to be away from all these.
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