BB SG these two days were really challenging days... but they were fun :) Generally boys were quite cooperative... and we managed to get things done efficiently!
But during moments when I am alone... and I reflect... somehow I just feel so alone... the loneliness just crept in and made me feel really really empty. It's the feeling of... when I feel that it's just me alone. And when I'm really longing for someone... someone who understands me... and someone who knows me... and someone who really cares for me...
And when it comes to the above aspects... I then realise that there is no one whom I'm really close to. Most of the time... it's just me alone facing my emotions. And there's just... no one to put an arm around my shoulder... not even the people whom I thought were closer to me.
I haven't forgotten my resolutions about letting go and trusting in God. It's not that I don't wanna take initiative to really being the extrovert one and care for others... but it's more of the fact that I'm really really really really very very very tired. And I know I'm going downhill. Emotionally downhill. When it comes to these kinda things... somehow I just feel that if I decide to let someone else take the initiative... I'll just be left alone.
Alone. That's how I'm feeling right at this very moment. But who will be willing to put his arm around my shoulder?
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