Lord, I'm Back

Finally got my thoughts straightened out... and my emotions as well...

For the entire of today, I felt the peace that I haven't been feeling for the past few days. And I know that this peace that I feel comes from God... because I have opened up my heart to Him, and let Him guide, and to just live my life for Him, and rejoice and be glad in the day that He has made!

Remember about three weeks back... the bus ride that made me want to place God as the top priority in my life? The sad thing is... I haven't been doing that. All these while. I've just been focusing on myself, and I forgot my identity - that I am His child, His beloved son... and that He's my Father...

To put things bluntly, I saw myself being extremely arrogant the past few days. Why? Because I only saw the flaws in others... and I failed to see the flaws in myself. During my time of reflection in Malacca, I realised that all my reflections revolved around myself, and I began to lose focus of God... and that explains the nonsense blog posts that I typed when I came back from Malacca. Haha.

But I'm back. It feels so good to commit myself to Him again... and to know that I belong to Him. My sense of belonging should not revolve around people... all I need is to know that my sense of belonging comes from Him. That I am His. And when I mean that I belong to Him, it means that I surrender my life to Him, and let Him mould me, and guide me.

And in Him, I will never feel tired again. Never emotionally tired. Because I can always draw strength from Him! God is just a prayer away... and I can come before Him wherever and whenever. He's always there for me... but was I always there for Him?

This verse really inspired me during my QT today...

Isaiah 64: 8 says,

"And yet, Lord, You are our Father. We are the clay, and You are the potter. We are all formed by Your hand."

So what I'm gonna do is... I'm gonna let go of things. I need not worry about my relationships with people... because God will take care of them. All I need to do is to let go and let God. To simply trust in the Lord, and not lean on my own understanding, and when I do so, He will make my paths straight!

Lord, I'm back! Make me Yours forever!