So PISSED OFF!!!

Just had a large quarrel with my mum. So pissed off now I just feel like throwing all my things around my room.

My mum... she always likes to compare me with other people. I've had enough of that. She never puts in the effort to try to understand how I am feeling, and how much stress I have to cope with. It's stressful enough to have to see the people around me who are so intellectually capable. And I've had a really really long day today. CAN'T SHE BE MORE UNDERSTANDING!!!

Just because she wants me to be perfect. Like in every aspect. She puts me through IB, doesn't think that friendships are that important. Like come on. Her son has made it into ACS(I). But I don't see her being thankful for me. Has so many complaints. It's like... I'm so stressed already and she has to provoke me after such a long day. And I still have my Math Port to complete. It's like YEA SHE'S SO UNDERSTANDING RIGHT???

And then when she gives up quarreling she just suddenly kneels down on the floor and bang her head against the floor in front of me. For what. And it just makes me feel soooooooo bad it's like I really feel like things are sooooo out of my control.

All I ask is for parents who support me and encourage me throughout my IB journey. AND IB HASN'T OFFICIALLY STARTED. I don't think this is a very unreasonable request. I'm already withstanding a lot that my parents don't attend school talks and heck care about the circulars the school gives. Like I gave my dad the letter to attend my subject briefing so much in advance, and in the end? Didn't go. How does that make me feel? Makes me feel so alone. All the more when they always compare me to others.

I won't say I'm very gifted in music but... my parents don't seem to be thankful for this. I think they'll be very very happy if I have no rest, no play, and just mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug, and mug mug mug mug mug even more.

Haiz. Gotta do math port now. Now it's not just coping with schoolwork, IT'S COPING WITH PARENTS!!!