Sigh... I just changed my blog address, which is a consequence of my irresponsibility. I thought that by posting my blog address on Facebook, it would be a test of who would be concerned enough about me to find out that I have a blog, but I didn't know that I invited unwanted readers as well.
Well, my second "spiritual buddy" found out about my blog because I posted my blog address on Facebook. I took down the link within less than a day I think, but he was really fast. Seems like I still don't get this personal space that I have been asking for...
Tomorrow, I will have to face the reality which I don't want to face. God gave me four weeks to tidy up my feelings, but I chose to hide from all these problems... Now it's time for the reality and I wasn't really ready for it. But after praying with some of my cell members today afternoon, I feel much better now.
I think I just need courage. Courage from God to continue walking down this path. It's a mere 10 hours before I have to face everything. And I know that help is just a prayer away.
To me, everything seems so big and so messy... but in God nothing is impossible. And I believe that if I let go and let God, He will take care of everything for me! Although I know I can't run away from everything, but I know that God will certainly give me the courage to face reality!
1 comments:
I jus read all ya posts. Not sure if I got what you were trying to bring across. I look forward to more updates! *wink*
I am sure God can understand all ya cpx feelings and emotions. =) You may not feel it but the fact is your courage level is increasing as the clock ticks away. God is saying, "Let me fill you up with courage first, in time I will give you what you need. "
^.^
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